The lawyer asked Jeff that question and I have been thinking about it. I know she was really trying to see how far we've thought out the ramifications if Hannah decides to locate her birth mother. I always wanted to be able to say with 100% assurance, that her birth mother gave her up out of love. But the waters have been so muddied, that I don't think I can honestly answer much of the questions Hannah may have in the future.
So the only thing I can tell her is what I know in my heart to be the truth. One, we would never would have started the adoption and continued unless we thought that was what her birth mother wanted.
Two, God has a plan and He put Hannah in our family and no matter what He didn't make a mistake.
Three, her dad and I made decisions based on the information we were given at the time. Sometimes that information was not accurate and we did not know that when we made our choices. Hindsight is 20/20 and if we had all the pieces to the puzzle when we made the decions, things might have been different.
Four, I know in my heart that I have asked God to forgive me for any harm or pain my decisions may have caused her birth mother. I spent nights crying and wondering if her birth mother was somewhere in Mexico doing the same. In order for me to be the best mom I could be, I had to let go and know that God knows my heart.
Five, no matter where she goes or what she does, she is always my baby girl. I am blessed that God chose to place her in our family.
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I finally got this loaded at home and signed in. I had tried before.
When I read Sunday' blog my heart aches. Please know that you are in our family's prayers. We pray that you will have happy answers soon and discover more and more evidence of God's hand in all of this.
rhonda
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